to stay or to leave, is decided by you

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

okay today same routine,

schooling after tht went home & head to meet my customer.

wanted to go with hwee sin they all, but have to pass stocks so didnt went.

& i dont know why, i guess i'm breaking down sooner or later.

from the start, i shouldnt start all this at all.

the relationship & everything.

it only make you more heartbreak i think?
i'm too selfish or what? i had been thinking him for all this while

but yet, what i wish for & hope for alway didnt turn out.

is it because now i'm in a relationship tht why you didnt?

or what? i know i'm super duper selfish, i know.

but i'm trying to let go.

it takes alot of times for me to forget about it, after all it had been a year & more.

from the start when you know tht i like you,

you didnt turn,

even now, i'm waiting or what.

i guess you wont know.

i'm so tired of feelings, it destroy everything.

you know i'm still giving myself a little hope,

telling myself to wake up from this unrealistic dreams.

but still, i couldnt make it.

everyone told me to move on,

but i dont know why, i only make a step but nothing else.

you know, you mean a lot to me from the start.

but now, it's not tht much.

life isnt about love but something more important,

maybe i long should leave,

shouldnt stay too long but by the time i leave would you still turn?

i maybe a super duper nice friend & stranger,

but perfectly not a nice girlfriend.