i know i still miss you.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

I admit after so long I still couldnt get over it.

Hey darlings,
yesterday was so fun!
i was slacking at home as i cancelled those outing and stuff.
and my grandma came asking me to change and go my cousin's house.

i was like, can i dont go?
super ultra lazy to get my butt up.
so yeah! eventually went cause i dont want nagging.

but i didnt know was my niece's birthday.
i've been so old man! not even 14, i'm already an aunt.
but well, birthday boy is really handsome yesterday.

after the whole things, went to my cousin's house.
which age gap isnt tht big.
yeah, and he pack his stuff and head to my house.
we chatted those school life, and of cause somethings else. *secret*

and we played poker cards and lots man.
i have so much fun yesterday.
my sister, her boyfriend, my cousin and me were laughing here and there.

| 9:19 PM |

Maybe i didnt know tht i haven let go

Why do I still feel my heartbeat jumping whenever I heard your name.

OHMY! i'm feeling super moody but also hyper.
i dont know whats wrong with me.

well, maybe i'm really dumb.
like totally super dumb, why did i actually said it out.
there're lots of things i wanted to ask & said, but is better to keep it in my heart, i guess.

I was so moody yesterday but thanks to richmond.
He cheer me up, and be my listening ear
and made my day brighter(:

so went to play badminton with sister, her boyfriend and mum.
i'm lousy at tht but my sister insist of playing.
should have went to gym but i woke up late(:

and today all programmes is cancelled by me.
cause i'm too lazy to step out of my house again.
felicia said monday then passed her chemistry file.

so i eventually cancelled the outing with clique.
i wanted to go vivo city i dont know for what also.

anyway, work is starting next week.
I'm super excited okay.
I hope it faster arrive then i'll have money.
and i'll be happy. *giggle*

i'm thinking of cutting bangs, should I?
zhiying ask me to cut bangs and curl it, she said look pretty on me.
but i think it looks retarded and werid on me.

well, i'm still thinking about it.
to curl it or to make soft reborn again.
dont ask me why i want to reborn again, cause i simply hate my hair now.
after reborn or curl it, i gonna do treatment for it.
Freak! the more i think, the more i dont know which to choose.

someone help me to get an idea.
or should i cut short my hair?
I'm fickle-minded person man.

should I:
-Cut short with bangs and reborn it
-Cut bangs with the same hair length and reborn it.
-Cut bangs with the same hair length and curl it.
-Dont cut bangs but with the same hairstyle and length and curl it.
-Dont cut bangs but with the same hairstyle and length and reborn it.

any idea which one to get?
damm it, i want so many style but the price is also high.

| 12:46 AM |

you leave me breatheless

Friday, November 28, 2008

Hey babes and hunks,
i'm having fun and doing all sorts of crazy things now.

yesterday i slept at 6.30am.
and woke up late today:(
but nevermind is okay, i still have fun(P

I just came across this advertisment from nuffnang.
nick& norah, it's coming soon.
actually, i created a song for it.

But i delete the song away.
well, dont ask me why, zhi ying say the song is simple but nice.
but i guess, i'm not talented at all.

tommorrow will be meeting felicia at Queenstown.
and head to meet my clique after that.

ohmymgo! i super love my present now.
and i'm getting an ipod real soon.
but haven make up my mind yet.

bye people.
will update you guys tommorrow.

| 6:15 AM |

if your love is guessing and everything, then i give back all your love.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

you lead me back to the path tht you get me out.



Hey earthlings,

Life hasnt been good to me at all.
sometimes, something is out of our control i guess.

I hope to hold your hands,
I hope to walk down the path with you,
I hope to carry those trust,
I hope to carry my promises and everything.

But now,
I dont hope to anymore.

Those words tht you said,
Those promises tht you made,
Those lies tht you meant,
Those things tht you hide.

Made me lost trust on you,
what you said,what you do.
i really tired, what makes you think tht.

i try to forgive and forget but maybe it's quite hard, i guess.
but you're more petty.
keep saying about the past, OHMY!

what i said now, i really dont understand.
words cant replace my feelings and everything.
i dont know how to said it.

update you guys tommorrow.
love you.

| 7:26 AM |

disguested freak!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Oh man, I just quite annony because of somebody.
Hello! if you want to act as the good one, please stop hurting others.

if you think by doing this can gain you something,
then continue, but i assure you, you'll get nothing.
well, i know humans do change but i didnt change till.

what is all this man,
one word here and one word there,
think before you start gossip around.
who is the one tht help you around in the past and who is the one tht do it.

i know i'm not tht nice in the past,
but everyone have their wrongs or mistake.
so why are you speaking or doing this to harm someone,
when you yourself isnt tht noble and good at all.
NO ONE IS PERFECT! GET IT!

i'm trying to change,
maybe i'm not someone you like or dislike in the past.
but learn how to forgive and forget.
if you forgive then stop speaking nasty things or the damm old past.

LOOK, it's 2008 now!
you cant turn back time neither can you change the facts.
so please, if you want to harm someone to it,
or trying to be funny because _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

then you jolly well stay away from them,
dont come and do whatever tht make you look innocent,
but yet disguesting and like a clown.
I didnt mention any particular one here,
SO IF YOU ASSUME YOU'RE ONE then too bad.

| 9:50 AM |

Follow down here

sketch my face, write my name, and place it there.



Hey babes and hunks, i'm back.
well, today was super odd and pretty day i guess.

firstly, went to baby house to find him.
have some arrugment but it's alright now i guess.

headed home first before i went to find Zhiying's group.
reached home and saw baby came to my house and find me.
cause i didnt pick up his calls as i was super pissed off.

I need some respect, but you never ever give it to me before.
Those promises tht you made to me or whoever, doesnt goes on.

but well, i avoided cause i was pissed off.
headed to find zhiying they all, as it was zhiying's birthday,
and i almost forget, plus she asked me to accompany her to see doctor.
but well, it ended off smoothly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY ZHIYING!

after tht headed home,
and watched channel 8, ohmygod!
ou xuan super pretty okay! i love tht show play on 9pm.

and yes, thanks pretty babes zhiying.
ILOVE YOU!

| 7:44 AM |

lovely, sexy, baby

Monday, November 24, 2008

mood: sexy baby

| 6:26 AM |

promise

Sunday, November 23, 2008

if these are your promises, i dont need it at all.

Hellooo earthlinggggggggssss.

i'm updating now.
my life have been feeling with colours this few days.

firstly, was my younger sister's birthday.
it's fun and cute!
hahahah!

anyway, the interview i guess it wont be sucessful.
cause of some question, if you want to know ask me in msn.
i'm not too sure, but they will noticify me if i'm in a few days time.

well, sunday stayed at home for the whole day.
watched cartoon and slept.
and 7pm watched channel 8, was funny and some part are touching.
i cant remember what i do after tht.

i guess i played psp after tht,
cause i was waiting for my sister and my present too!
and yes, i received my present.
the dress i guess it's too sexy. *giggle*

and yes, i recevied edusave bursary award.
have to send in the form to communite centre today.
and then later i'll cook yummy food! HAHAH!

| 9:01 PM |

i'm loving it

Thursday, November 20, 2008

way back into love.

Helloo peopleeeeee.

I wasnt feeling well today.
have been slacking at home the whole day.
i'm getting lazier and lazier.

my sister and her boyfriend leaving tommorrow morning.
sunday night will be back and yes, i'll have present.
bangkok, i'll visit you one day.
wait for me alright(:

anyway, tommorrow watching movie again!
tatatata chiwawa!
okay, i'm too hyper now.

i cant wait for saturday to arrive.
my younger sister's birthday and my interview for tht contest.
hope everything is under my control.

shall post after my sister come back from bangkok.
or if i have a chance to touch computer.
love you guys.

| 8:43 AM |

past, present, future.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

i dont care about future but the present.

hello earthlinggssssssssssssss.

should have training today but end up cancelled.
because my coach having flu.
quite serious when he called me.

so have been slacking at home.
raining the whole evening, OHMYMGO!
so nice to sleep okay but didnt have a chance to sleep.

i was busying cooking(:
oh yes, i invented one new dish!
HAHAHAH! can be eaten okay(:
it's nice, i love it(:

headed to redhill market to find auntie.
brought her the corn tht i made.
and talk awhile and headed home.

channel 8, 9pm show ending.
super fast okay!
3 more espiodes, i hope buqun and yuhang can be together(:

shall post tommorrow.
younger sister's birthday coming,
and i'm lack of money now! freak it!

| 7:15 AM |

treasure, cherish, you.

Monday, November 17, 2008

i dont know how long it last, but i'll cherish now.

HELLO PEOPLE!

i have a great day yesterday,
and i guess my family and dummy have a great day too.
went to east coast yesterday,
and guess what after delaying here and there,
we reached there at around 4.30pm.

and of course first thing to do, EAT!
yummyy! and don was doing bbq for us.

went to play sand-castle,
okay i know i have no childhood.
It has been like 239349845 years since i played sand-castle okay. *sad smile*
but i really have a lot of fun.

rest awhile and played water.
dummy and i have water war, super fun!
and at first i'm not wet at all, dont ask me why.
but dummy was super ultra wet.
guess what he wanted to throw me to the sea, but lucky,
i ran away! AHAHAH!
i'm the winner!

but in the end i still get wet.
make it short, IT'S SUPER DUPER FUN!

head home after tht, i was so tired alright.
bathe and send dummy down and after tht,
rolled on my bed and fall asleep.
what a day(:
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i've been slacking for the whole day today.
i have eventually slept till 2pm cause i'm damm tired.
have been staying up till morning this few weeks.
and guess what i have to wake up to get the cheque from my uncle.
just tht CHEQUE and i have to wake up at 9am. freak!

headed home after tht,
have a interview today but last minute couldnt make it.
postone to thursday or saturday.
wish me good luck, if i get in, $10,000 waiting for me, if i've tht chance.

and i have been watching vcd the whole day or television.
I've become shows freak and today clique asked me to go out.
sorry once i watch shows, no going out *giggle*

anyway, grandpa came back home today.
welcome him back(:
it's like finally back, hope everything will be fine after tht.

shall post tommorrow.
go out again tommorrow, yes!
but wednesday having training for tht water yoga thing:(
but it's great because i get paid(:

| 8:31 AM |

i know it gonna be hard for me.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

I hope it can stop at this moment.

alright, i was slacking at home the whole afternoon.
went to watch movie with people(:
before that headed to have our dinner.

seriously, i miss all this while with you.
hope time could stop at this moment.

well, wanted to watch at GVgrand but the ticket there was selling fast.
so went to tiong bahru again.

| 9:00 AM |

wasn't it

Friday, November 14, 2008

you cause it to be like this.

Hello people, i guess i'm going to have very deep dark circle:(
i have been staying up till very late this few weeks.

couldnt sleep well at all.
i've been watching online shows till 3am, 4am, 5am, or 6am.
OHMYMGO! i'm so strong.
AHAHAH(:

so today ended around 1 woke up because of stupid noises.
and went to sleep at 3pm.
and slept till 4.15pm, dummy called me to wake up.
and yeah! so on and for.

well, i dont feel like blogging.
so pardon me was real sick.
didnt even went to see grandpa also.
shall visit him even later tommorrow.

| 3:54 AM |

at the end of this path, i'll meet you there.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

destiny.

Okay, today is a super freaky day for me.

at first, i was sleeping so nicely and peacefully.
and my mum wake me up, i was like "hello! i'm sleeping! rainy day you know"
and guess what cause she couldnt make it for my younger sister's parents meeting session.
so end up i have to wake up early for that.

went there and what get freaky was,
there was an old man following me all the way from bus 33 till the kindergarden.
and on the way he was talking to me but i didnt even know what is he talking about.
i guess he must be drunk man.

so i speed up and guess what he chase after me.
OHMYMGO! super freaky and scary.
then after i turn back, i didnt see anyone. *wooo*
but awhile later, i appear infront of me.
yes, my first reaction, run!

and yes, i'm gone and i manage to leave him behind.
and i ran back to the classroom and waited.

after everything, headed home and guess what.
another freaky things happen.
i was messaging friends and i received weird calls.
have been receiving for a few days but dont really bothered till yesterday.

anyway, this is how it goes.
Me: Hello?
Caller: yes?
Me: you called me you ask me yes. =.-
Caller: oh sorry, I..
Me: *hang up phone*

and ring ring again...

Caller: I want you.
Me: fuck you.
Caller: i'm happy to hear you said that to me.
Me: *hang up*

and actually, i'm quite pissed off but also very scare.
imagine if someone called saying weird things and it's private number.
oh! I cant think about it anymore.

Finally reached my house area, i thought finally peace.
end up, a woman came up to me.
Woman: hello girl. do you know where is greenland park.?
Me: HUH? greenland park. Sorry i dont know.
and i was thinking does singapore have one?
Woman: then do you know where is redland park?
Me: *giggle* sorry i dont know any of it.

and i must say i really think she have mental problem so,
as not to bad i walked off.
and guess what? she run to me and ask again.
Woman: *smile* tell me where is greenland park and redland park.
Me: * cannot tahan anymore* i laugh out loudly.

and a passerby saw me laughing so he ask,
passerby: girl,why?
Woman: you know where is greenland park?
passerby: HUH? there's no such park in singapore.
Woman: yes, have dont lie to me.

then i guess the passerby also think she is crazy.
so the passerby also control his laughter and give me the sight,
asking me to leave.
and guess what lucky, there's a call from my new job.
and i faster walked away(:

see, today's a freaky day for me right. GOSH!
but anyway, i pushed and rejected the photoshoot job again.
i know the paid is damm high $100/hr.

but well, i guess it's quite freaky and werid too.
but i found a job(:
assist those coach teaching water yoga.
the job paid is good alright(:

anyway, i visit my grandpa today.
today is must worst he doesnt even want to eat at all.
only milk:(
quite upset and yes, idont know how to say.

shall blog tommorrow.
love you peopleee.

| 5:29 AM |

those times.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

with you.

well, i seriously damm.
erm... actually i dont know what i want to say.
i'm really super ultra sick.
freak that gastric pain and slight fever.

anyway, went to pass stocks today.
clementi and pasir ris, two different ends man.
OH MY MGO!

and head to cut my hair.
okay, i cut short my fringe & it look super ultra retarded to me.
i didnt want to cut short but that long fringe make me feel like killing it.

after that head to visit grandpa.
didnt even want to eat at all, stubborn.
i'm really afraid if he continue like this, he will really have to stay at the hospital for a long period of time.
but after my nagging and scolding,i believe tommorrow he'll eat abit(:

and it has been raining all day long, from afternoon till now.
make me think, sometimes, i do wish to be alone.
rainy day make me feel so tired. *yawns*

and anyway, thanks guys.
i didnt know that so many were reading my blog till everyone ask me and concern about me.
and tagging on my tagboard but yes,
i love you people! the greatest thing in my life is to know you guys(:

| 7:00 AM |

i need something to make me carry on

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

i hope, i guess, i think.


okay, i just realised something stupid. HAHAH!
there's nothing wrong with blogger, missing fronts and so on is...



BECAUSE...............

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It should be under compose but end up i dont know what happen,
become edit html. HAHAH!


anyway, i was sick today.
having slight fever and no one was taking care of me.
and was seriously weak.
so, i try to rest and wake up at 4.35pm.


bathe and head to see grandpa despite i'm having fever.
see what a great grand- daughter. *giggle*
you know i'm just kidding so leave your comment aside and shut up.


brought filet-o-fish for grandpa and he eventually ate it.
accompany grandpa and i realised in the room,
there're already quite a few patient being discharged.

and their bed are being replaced by new patients.
but anyway, grandpa is leaving tht hospital real soon isnt it.
it's better for him to leave!
MUST LEAVE! :)


headed home around 6.50 or 7pm.
when somewhere and seated down there.
waited till more than 20minutes or even half an hour.
yet, disappointing?
no, i dont feel it.


and headed home, i'm really sick.
fuck it, i still wanted to go pinic this friday or what:(


okay i shall go off now.
byee people,
with love.

| 4:48 AM |

Monday, November 10, 2008

there's something wrong with blogger.
the colour, the front and everything is missing.
so i'll not updated till i see everything is up((:

sorry but anyway, it's the usual routine.
will update soon alright(:

| 4:58 AM |

dont assume like you know me well

Okay, there's one retarded person tagging at my tagboard.
so to clear everything she wants, i say once and for all.

In the first place, having lots of guy friends doesnt mean i'm flirting.
They care about me, talk to me, console me, go out with me and whatever.
this called flirt? please check the dictionary for the meaning of flirt.

Secondly, IT's MY RELATIONSHIP.
what is it gonna do with you?
my boyfriend doesnt even said a single things so why are you commenting?
if i'm a flirt, my boyfriend should have leave me long ago.
but he didnt so why are you so pissed off with?
or you like my boyfriend so hoping to be with him? dream on!

Thirdly, whether i break up with my boyfriend is that your problem again?
and why must i find a new boyfriend when i'm happy with my single life.
use your common sense please! but i bet you've one. *evil laughter*
so what if i've lots of boy friends around me?
indeed i do have lots of boy friends around me ,but, why must i choose one to be my boyfriend
or flirt with them?
and i dont find a need for you to be so pissed off with.

Fouth, when the hell did i said i miss my past and said i love KS?
HELLO! that is already past, OVER!
History, no point saying him again isnt it?
Now, I and him are just friend. That it.
and yes, i admit, sometime i do miss my past
but it's just a part of memories.

AND GET THIS RIGHT! I LOVE LOW LI HAO NOW NOT KS.
you can tagged all you want but i know much more clearly than anyone.
it's my feeling, who are you to assume it?
WHO ARE YOU TO?
my boyfriend didnt even said a single thing.
so why are you commenting for him?
are you in love with him?
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| 4:37 AM |

Tiamo

Sunday, November 9, 2008

[轮] 虽然是简单的形容 , 虽然是重复的动作
因为有你, 让一切都变成不平凡
好想缝合你我手心 , 就这样牵住放不开
有你陪伴 呼吸着有你的空气 就是幸福

[刘] Ti amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你 , 想着你 沉入梦境
一张眼 , 一清醒 , 第一个想到又是你
Sarangheayo And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你 [爱上你]
少一天 [少一天] 就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴, 怎样都不算蹉跎

[轮] 好想缝合你我手心, 就这样牵住放不开有你陪伴
呼吸着你的空气, 就是幸福

[刘] Ti amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你, 想着你, 沉入梦境
一张眼 一清醒 第一个想到又是你
Sarangheayo And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你 [爱上你]
少一天 [少一天] 就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴 , 怎样都不算蹉跎

[合] 陪着你的光阴永远都觉得不够

| 4:06 AM |

Tiamo

Oh, i love allmy rubbish bin(:

well, i'm feeling better.
thanks you guys for being there for me and also being my "rubbish bin"
HAHAH!

and thanks junwei for everything that you said and do yesterday.
i'll listen, i'll try(:
and of cause another nice person too.
stuart, thanks for accompanying me till like 3plus am.HAHAH!

anyway today, when to see my grandpa again at GH.
i guess things isnt great now to my grandpa.

lets not talk about unhappy things.
having photoshoot at my younger sister's birthday
but lucky it'll end early(:
this mean i'll have money! HOHOHO!

shall updatedyou guys tommorrow or later.
gastric acting up again.

| 3:56 AM |

i guess i dont need you anymore, it's dead

Saturday, November 8, 2008

you just never did it once with your heart and soul.

fuck those lies that you say to me.
fuck those promises that you made to me.
fuck those things, everythings you said and made to me.

i'm really tired of those promises that made to me
and end up none of it is done.
hello! since you cant do it, in the first place why promise me?
why give me empty hope to disappoint me and let me down.

why treating me like a fool.
and the worst things is, once quarrel every single bloody rubbish will be pushed to me.
if that is the case, tell me earlier.
i'll say, yeah! all is nowell tan's fault! HAPPY?

Irresponsible and immature bahaivour.
you're the world most dumb and whatever only like to assume and then push to people.
please, if they are so great go find them.
dont ask me or beg me back okay.
i have enough of every single one.

no one truthly do it using their own heart no one did!
said, i also know how to say.
everyone knows too!
i can say, i'll give you 1 billion.
so easily just use your mouth and talk.

but did anyone reallyuse their heart to do it,?
without disappointing anyone or what.
i'm not asking for perfect,
but why even chances are given, some people still dont cherish it.
i just want those things to be done so hard?

since tht is the case, why FIND ME!
when you cant do it, go find them.
nudge and whatever can do it.

if someone beg you to go on bed with them, then agree.
simply no logics.
flirt admit it, i admit i'm kind of flirt.
at least dare to admit isnt it?

just super pissed off.
anyway, will be going oversea real soon.
so wont be online to blog or what.
i need to rest for all this rubbish you people gave it to me.

| 5:54 AM |

i love you guys

Friday, November 7, 2008

i realised the biggest things is to forgive and forget.

sorry for didnt update for so long.
life have been full of up and down again.

grandpa had been admitted to hospital.
now, he is currently in hospital.
say seriously i'm upset over his bahaviour,
but no matter what i cant deny the fact tht he's my grandpa isnt it.

i can see he's very upset,
i dont know what is it but maybe i can guess it.
yeah, i'm not a good grand daughter.
but at least not i realised all this isnt it.

it's your own father you yourself can say till.
what the fcuk, hello!
you taught me not to say this to my own daddy but you?
he may done wrong and everything but afterall,
he give birth to you and give you the best as he can.
then now..........
learn to forgive and forget isnt it.
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anyway, life has been alright.
only there's a few things i'm upset about.
and i must say this.

THANKS EVERYONE! A BIG THANK YOU TO YOU GUYS!
without you guys, i wont be standing here.
wont be leading all this.
really thanks you guys for being down there.
no matter i'm sad, happy, angry, disappointed all emotion.

my clique(:, my honey, my dearest, my beloved, my classmate,my every single friends(:
I LOVE YOU GUYS!ROCK MAN!

| 6:52 PM |

may it remain like this.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Hello people.

nothing much happened today.
the same usual things.
sleep, wake up, go out and then eat.

well, my life is bored:(
i wanna go bangkok(:
but i dont know whether i can save tht much money.
but i guess i can.

and yes, i'm tired now.
shall go rest.
bye people and sorry for my short post.

| 6:37 AM |

yesterday,today, tommorrow

Monday, November 3, 2008

maybe i need some peace, leave me alone.

well, finally today's problem is solved. *woosh
anyway, i have to bid goodbye soon.

well, i'm tired so many things happen.
to you what am i? if i really mean so much to you, then why are you treating me like this.
if you love me would you?

i felt so helpless.
toward you the feeling maybe fading, you disappoint me too many time.
if you really want it, you would do it.

anyway, my leg is getting swollen due to friday rushing back.
well, i shall go and rest.
tommorrrow, will be a better day.

| 6:00 AM |

you know you means alot to me

Sunday, November 2, 2008

a layer to protect myself.

something bad happen again.
it's too complicated to say now, and i dont want to get anyone into trouble.

ohmygod! i'm sick now you know.
shall updated after i find someone(:

byebyepeople.

| 8:48 PM |

avoiding and running.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

sorry, i told you a lie again

yesterday was the past, tommorrow'll be my future.
yes, tommorrow will be a brand new day.
no more you and the past i promise.

remember, nowell learned(:
and yes, the next one i'll cherish it.
i cant deny i hasnt forget those memories.
but yeah! i'll try now cause i've great friends around me.

you too also have move on.
no matter what, you've guide me through in the past.
happy, sad, disappointed, every emotional is alway causes by you.

but now i'll depend on my own.
no matter i'm gonna fall anot:D
i wont go bother you so neither do you come and bother me, just incase.

i'll be going oversea soon.
i wont be back to singapore temp.
and nowell'll be mia till she changed(:

byeeeeee people(:
i'll blog when there is new update.

Labels: if true love exited, please give me a call so tht i can contact it

| 9:13 AM |

walking down those places, i know it's time

yesterday, i cried and i told myself, this'll be the last time, i'll never let it happen again.

i wasnt in a mood to blog at all.
yeah! now not only my own relationship having problems.
family also having problems.

daddy, mummy, grandpa and everthing.
i felt so tired and hopeless.
why is this happening on me? on me NOWELL TAN?

i felt so tired so many things in one goal.
how on earth can i handle it well?
when i clear one another comes, anyone will also collapse.

i really feel like crying,
yeah! i read through my past post and i went out to somewhere.
those places tht only have happiness.
i wont mention where i went cause i dont want any misunderstanding.
cause at least those place, it wont change.
those memories, those places, those familiar faces but now,
it turns to unfamiliar.
why,? why things tht seems so simple alway so hard to fufill.

i really feel like dying man.
am i so untrustable? why is it those i loved seems to be not trusting me at all?
those who claims tht will protect me are the one tht is hurting me.

i have so many things, i am so upset.
i need my shoulders, i'm falling.

i really want to leave this place, singapore.
yes, i'm running and avoiding but i guess it's better isnt it?

yesterday was my last day towards you.
i tried so hard, i rush back thinking you're there.
end up when i called you i heard your friends voice again.
the same incident appearing twice.
is this call waiting when you're with your friends.?
you say you'll wait but end up, you are still with your friends.
if you cant tolerate me, then dont have to tell me everything.
i'm tired, those places you leave down i swear i'm not stepping again.

| 4:53 AM |

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