walking down those places, i know it's time

Saturday, November 1, 2008

yesterday, i cried and i told myself, this'll be the last time, i'll never let it happen again.

i wasnt in a mood to blog at all.
yeah! now not only my own relationship having problems.
family also having problems.

daddy, mummy, grandpa and everthing.
i felt so tired and hopeless.
why is this happening on me? on me NOWELL TAN?

i felt so tired so many things in one goal.
how on earth can i handle it well?
when i clear one another comes, anyone will also collapse.

i really feel like crying,
yeah! i read through my past post and i went out to somewhere.
those places tht only have happiness.
i wont mention where i went cause i dont want any misunderstanding.
cause at least those place, it wont change.
those memories, those places, those familiar faces but now,
it turns to unfamiliar.
why,? why things tht seems so simple alway so hard to fufill.

i really feel like dying man.
am i so untrustable? why is it those i loved seems to be not trusting me at all?
those who claims tht will protect me are the one tht is hurting me.

i have so many things, i am so upset.
i need my shoulders, i'm falling.

i really want to leave this place, singapore.
yes, i'm running and avoiding but i guess it's better isnt it?

yesterday was my last day towards you.
i tried so hard, i rush back thinking you're there.
end up when i called you i heard your friends voice again.
the same incident appearing twice.
is this call waiting when you're with your friends.?
you say you'll wait but end up, you are still with your friends.
if you cant tolerate me, then dont have to tell me everything.
i'm tired, those places you leave down i swear i'm not stepping again.

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