Realised.

Friday, March 20, 2009

mood: confusing.

what's happening all this while?
It looks like I didnt know anything at all.
Am I too that bad, sometimes I really wonder.

Maybe by stopping bad influence is a bad thing.
What's going on now, I suddenly felt lost.
Did I trust you too much in the past? Or believe you too much?
Maybe I'm too naive all this while.

I really dont understand, why is those that love you backstabbed you the most?
Why must they lie? and why when you know the truth you still think he is real.
What is going on? I thought the god say that I'm having good luck.
Why just a moment of someone angry, I lost everything.

Was it really my fault?
Am I being childish? Who am I now, I'm getting lost.
I thought I change to a better one, a better girlfriend.
Maybe I had never been I guess?

Why is it so hard to tell the truth?
Why must human lie to those they love the most?
I'm tired, This relationship is killing.

I want to sort everything out, just what is going on.
This isnt what I expected to be.

Till now I know, I'm just nothing to you.
No matter how I want it to be perfect, how I try my best.
I know I'm demanding but at least I'm still nice to you isnt it?
I did change that is for sure.
I dont know what you told others and I dont want to know anymore.
But do whatever you want, change whatever story you want.
Cause I know the best isnt it?

What is the point being MR NICE infront of me and others.
and then actually your heart is that ________.
I dont know, suddenly I'm lost of words.
I dont know what I'm doing now.

But I know, I'm too use to you being around.
Maybe all this while is my fault? I never cherish you well? or maybe you didnt?
I dont know, but let the past be the past.
I dont know why, just out of sudden, i think of let go of this and stopped all the explaination to others.
Let others assume what you said are really true, I dont want to explore all single things.
I dont want to know who is true or who is not.

I only know I dont want to know anymore things about people or what.
It's making me tired, I just realised.
Maybe I also focus lots of time on you.

Can everything turn back to the past?
I want to, really want to have a better future.
I dont know what am I typing now, my mind is confused.
For this moment I just hoped I'm alone.

Let nowell MIA for a moment?
A month? A week? or maybe forever?

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