Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I guess I must be damn "lucky". Just 2nd day of school and I have to stay at home.
Because it have cough and heavy flu which shows in H1N1. Super suay!
Going school on thursday as doctor afraid I might have some virus. LOL!
I dont want to blog le. byebye

| 12:32 PM |

Sunday, June 28, 2009

School starting tommorrow, super boring.
Okay, bye i dont want to blog le.
Tired, hope i can wake up tommorrow. HAHA
night people!

| 10:04 AM |

It was you,

K.
I'm happy for my present now, or perhaps it's better than it was.
I thank you for what you had make me become and I hope for a better future for you(:

Perhaps, it's time to open the key and let you in.
Perhaps, I can never do it.
Perhaps, I never ever trust what you say to me.
Perhaps, what you promise you can fufill but I cant.
Perhaps, I still love him like I do in the past.
Perhaps, his happiness is what I hope for.
Or perhaps, I'm lying to myself, my heart and everyone else.

XXX, just where are you. How I wish at this moment you could tell me everything's alright.
It'll be fine and trust me like how you did even others say I'm not.
Just felt like giving up and it was you who give me the strength.
I'm really tired, I dont know how to get up.

I'm tired of falling, afraid of promises, sick of lies and everything.

| 9:53 AM |

All day long.

Friday, June 26, 2009

wednesday
Meet Hweez, yumi and fel @ far east plaza.
Meet up with fel first and went to eat lunch, was super hungry.
After that headed to far east to meet up with them and went shopping(:
Brought high-waist short and cotton on short.

And baby(s) brought theirs too(:
After that went to isetan and then I dont know where.
AHAHAH! cant remember it.
But after yumi and hweez went off, fel and me went to far east to buy my mum's present.
And then went to accompany fel for dinner.
But dint eat cause too full, cabbed to redhill market.

And meet willie, kenny and KL. ZL should be at there but he went out. LOL!
BLAHBLAHBLAH. went to redhill market after that and headed home.
celebrate mummy's birthday @ 12am sharp(:
and then went to meet Jy and others for awhile.
Brought ms and mr capsules and headed home.

Thursday
Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY!
You're my friend, my mummy, my buddy and everything.
I maybe naughty at times but mummy, I truely love you.
So, I hope you enjoy your birthday. AND MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE<3

went to redhill to help out aunt.
nothing much happened just usual routine, i guess.
after work, saw zl and kl chatted with them and headed to aunt's home.
And I was having headache, so pissed off but well no point. HAHA!

today
Went to bukit merah library to study, or should I say to complete holiday homework.
Then went to redhill market with jy and huahui.
then meet zl and kl then slack then chatted and what.
I dont know forgotten, just hope everything will be fine.* pray hard*

Nothing much I dont know what to type anymore.
School is going to reopen on monday and I'm not in the mood to go back.
Just suddenly felt like giving up everything.

Maybe is time to let go.

| 8:18 AM |

Just too tired to get everything right

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

When love came, you cant hide neither can you run.
It's tiring for me to depend on someone who doesnt exist.
I'm tired to stretch out my hand towards the sky and there's no one there to pull me.
I'm tired to handle it myself anymore.
I'm really tired at this moment.

| 8:37 PM |

绝对男友

My Absolute Boyfriend.

I wish for you to be right beside me.
I wish everything last long.
I wish everything go back to where it suppose to be.
I wish time could rewind.
I wish I could cherish the chance that I did not have the courage to do and if it appear again.
I wish I could disappear at this moment.
I wish I never know anything at all.
I wish nothing for now.
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Sorry for being random.Just too many thoughts in my mind now.
I watch finish absolute boyfriend. Ohmygod!
I hope I have a robot boyfriend, and it's make up with all I want it to be.
How nice can it be. I keep crying when I watch it.

School holiday's ending soon and I haven done a single homework yet.
Ohmy, MGO. I totally have no idea.
I dint have the mood to go back school.
Shall watch other drama . BYE all.

ps. i love you.

| 2:51 AM |

Monday, June 22, 2009

It's you who make me strong.
It's you who make my day.

| 11:15 AM |

Perhaps

Sunday, June 21, 2009

I'm starting to afraid of everything. I've no idea why is it so.
Why I'm having this feeling. I'm confused, very confused.
I'm afraid of losing those I loved. I dont know.

Perhaps, I'm tired of putting up a mask.
Perhaps, It is time for me to take it down.
Perhaps, I'm afraid that I might disappear.
Perhaps, I'm feeling very lost now.
Perhaps, I want to be myself, the very own me.
Perhaps, I dont know everything around me now.

| 1:04 AM |

Monday, June 15, 2009

You dont know the pain in me, neither do you know how I feel

Attended funeral the past 2 days, yesterday was the last day.
I witness many things happened, and realised alot of things.
Perhaps I've grown more older for my minding.

Many things look so beautiful and wonderful but behind the things it has hidden meaning.
I seriously have no idea what is going this year, why everything seems to be so easy destroyed.
Be it kinship, relationship and friendship all I have no idea who is true to me.

When I'm down or whatever, I realised no one there for it.
Maybe is because I didnt want their concern and stuff, thus i push them away.
I really dont know, what are friends?
Hypocrites or what. The true one will always stay and others will just go.
How true can this be? But yet I saw many walk in and out, as if I'm an exhibition.

I dont know, I'm tired of being someone that you guys want me to be.
I want to be myself, the one that will always laugh no matter what.
But how come I couldnt find it anymore. Why is it so unfair?
All those unhappy stuff happen to me and not others. Those torturing scene.
What the hell is happening man, I seriously dont know.

I dont even know what I'm typing now. I felt so lost and blank.
Perhaps you're right, I always lock myself up. Lock up everything and even my heart.
That why no one can walk in. And that I keep everything to myself, and speak to no one.
Is that true I have no idea.

JUST TOO TIRED AND HOPE TO BE ALONE.

| 2:10 AM |

Time for another goodbye

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Illness and diseases are so scary that they took many lives away.

I witness another life and death. In chinese, we called it sheng li si bie.
I went to hospital today to visit my father's side relative.
Just realised this two years hasnt been a great year for us. Those who leave had leave.
The family became smaller and smaller till it isnt as fun as the past.

Life's too short for us, human. Many had leave the world to another place.
Illness are scary, they took so many lives away from us, our beloved ones.
Till now, I started to afraid of many things. Who knows maybe tommorrow or when we'll leave.
Leave this world, leave our beloved ones.

One by one had passed away, somehow it become more and more scary.
Life's too short for us, we should cherish everything now before we longer can.
Cen xian zai hai ke yi enjoy, enjoy. Bu yao dao lao de shi hou/ bing mo chan shen de shi hou then regret.

Goodbye uncle, rest in peace bah. We'll help you to take care of your family.
Your son, your daughter will take care of themselves and your wife.
I believe they're big enough to do so.
Take care of yourself in another place with gu gong. bidding goodbye:)

| 5:13 AM |

Awesome day

Saturday, June 6, 2009

WARNING: HEAVY IMAGES BELOW.
Tired le, blow until tired. HAHA
OHmygod!
Stupid candles.=.=
Tan fishy's bday cake
YAY! double happiness
Ohmygod! Our face. LOL!
My baby(s)
See yumi, deaf le. HAHA!
Felicia & me((:
Okay, I know I'm abit quite zilian.HAHAH! stupid faces.
My Bday cake((:
Turtle kana capture. LOL!
See act cute sia((:
Boonpeng,Arron & Nixon Lim!
Si ren!((;
Stupid pig! HAHAH!

Okay, I just uploaded those photos taken the past few days.
It was awesome & Ilove it.
I wonder in th future, will my birthday be so awesome again.
Oh, btw. Dearest did something real sweet for me.
I will post my present tommorrow. HAHA!
Let you guys wait(: I've lots of photos.
My awesome presents! Addias watch, bag, pencil box, earring, cups, cards, cake, cute speaker & alot more. That I've received.
And I'm very sorry that yesterday couldnt make it for my birthday celebration.
Seriously, because I'm having high fever that why couldnt make it.
But still, thanks all for messaging me and concern about me. LOVE!
Oh, btw. I just recovered from my high fever again.
I beg you, god. No more fever please.
I'm going st.james powerhouse tomorrow, anyone going?
cliques doesnt want to go. Cause they have their own activities.
I shall go now. Goodnight((:

| 10:45 AM |

my birthday!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

YAY! finally I'm offically 17 now((:
Had fun this 3days with all of you!

monday
Went to east coast with JY group and they asked me to cycle.
OHMYGOD! the most freaking stuff that I'll never do in my whole life anymore.
HAHAH! i didnt went and waited for them @ the beach.
and richmond and others was kind enough to accompany me. they even take turns to cycle to accompany thanks ah!
chatted alot with stupid pig! and then headed to mac.
So tienonn was using his burger as a cake and zha the fries on it then use the sause as the fire. LOL! super funny and they start singing happy birthday song LOL!
have fun with them((: and thanks GLJY ah, he chatted with me when I'm feeling down(:

tuesday
Met louis,arron,boonpeng,taimin and nixon to celebrate my bithday((:
and so kind of them, gang up and bully me! idiot.
watched monster VS alien, rate: 3.5/5
super funny, especially the president playing the keyboard. LOL
and headed to eat and stuff! so fun man(((:
I love going with them cause they always "so cute". HAHA!
And stupid turtle and idiot arron, remember ah what you say(:

today
Have so much fun today despite I'm sick but yeah(:
went to k-box with fel, yumi and joey.w and we were like damn high lah(:
so yeah after that meet the guys for movie.
But ticket selling super fast so yeah, guys went for lan and girls went for shopping.
and headed to youth park for dinner(:
botak jones, and the guys treat me:) thanks!
Oh, after that played true or dare damn funny! headed home around 10.50pm.
Cause mummy is having a surprise for me LOL!
and sister & her bf make a brithday cake for me using mummy money. super nice(:

And I want to thanks those who wish me happy birthday and give me present and came to celebrate my birthday, xiexie!

: Felicia, yumi, hweesin, nicole, joey.w, hermes, shuwen, yenkee, arron, louis, nixon, taimin, boonpeng, eugene, terry, malvin, mr siah, ahmad, selvyn, lewis, huahui, yufeng, jeremy.ng, yuvaraj, weihowe, richmond, jia ying, gavin, tienonn, jiajun, lihao, richard, samual.
:Last but not the least, wifeyy ah tan, honey, CLIQUES(jeremy, WQ &more) and FAMILY!

ATTN: LOVE YOU GUYS(:

AND THANKS BABY for the happy birthday song(:
I'll upload the photos tommorrow(:

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO ME, NOWELL TAN!

| 11:21 AM |