Monday, June 15, 2009

You dont know the pain in me, neither do you know how I feel

Attended funeral the past 2 days, yesterday was the last day.
I witness many things happened, and realised alot of things.
Perhaps I've grown more older for my minding.

Many things look so beautiful and wonderful but behind the things it has hidden meaning.
I seriously have no idea what is going this year, why everything seems to be so easy destroyed.
Be it kinship, relationship and friendship all I have no idea who is true to me.

When I'm down or whatever, I realised no one there for it.
Maybe is because I didnt want their concern and stuff, thus i push them away.
I really dont know, what are friends?
Hypocrites or what. The true one will always stay and others will just go.
How true can this be? But yet I saw many walk in and out, as if I'm an exhibition.

I dont know, I'm tired of being someone that you guys want me to be.
I want to be myself, the one that will always laugh no matter what.
But how come I couldnt find it anymore. Why is it so unfair?
All those unhappy stuff happen to me and not others. Those torturing scene.
What the hell is happening man, I seriously dont know.

I dont even know what I'm typing now. I felt so lost and blank.
Perhaps you're right, I always lock myself up. Lock up everything and even my heart.
That why no one can walk in. And that I keep everything to myself, and speak to no one.
Is that true I have no idea.

JUST TOO TIRED AND HOPE TO BE ALONE.

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