Saturday, August 22, 2009

Whether to hold you tight or.

Hello people, I'm back from SP.
Woke up at 1.20pm, saw messages and calls from class clique, clique and bestie.
Called back and message back.

So prepared and went to redhill to help bestie take money from his daddy.
Then headed to SP to meet Malvin and others.
So, I was late. Quite late, okay should I say very late.
Gavin and the others was going off. Left malvin,ahmad,weihowe, jeremy and me.
So intended to study but I guess we were all slacking.

Write down some notes then the library was about to close.
Headed to canteen 5 and slack with weihowe and malvin. While others went off.
We were gossipping and chatting, super funny.
Headed home around 7plus, took bus 147 with malvin.

And Edison called me and chat, I have no idea who was he at first.
Cause I totally forgotten him, sorry.
Then he told me stuff till I reach home and "console" me by disturbing/bullying me.
SO NICE OF HIM! *evil*

So someone ask me, if you dont love, you wont tear.
If you intend to let go, why love.
Confusing but somehow I get what it means, But it's hard for me.
Too many obstacles I guess, I dont know how to handle it well.

I'm afraid I'll be a burden.
I'm afraid I'll not handle it well.
I'm afraid the same history will happen again.
I'm afraid of so many things.

I dont know how to say to you neither I know how to express to those who concern about me.
It isnt because I always want to keep it but sometimes, somethings is better to keep it to yourself.


And I seriously have no idea, why are people acting in this way.
It's getting me super pissed alright, without telling me anything.
But giving me attitude and stuff, I dont understand what I did wrong.
Just by appearing offline and being retard in msn as if I understand.
I dont fucking get the problem, why our friendship would become like this.
Can anyone just tell me whats wrong, I'm tired of this.

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