Monday, September 28, 2009

Sweetest Love.

School for today was alright, except ahmad keep disturbing me & make fun of me.
As per normal, worksheets worksheets and worksheets.
Tonnes of worksheet are piling up, I'm getting out of breathe. HAHA!
No time for self study at all:(

Stayed back for night study today with shuz, nicole and the guys.
Ate ban mian(: awesome, it makes my day abit brighter?
As I was craving for it, when ahmad keep mentioning. HAHA!

So yeah, I shall go do my worksheets and homework.
But I dont think I can even finish it up.
Bye people, with love(:

| 7:16 AM |

Sunday, September 27, 2009

I'm super tired today, sorry people.
I'll blog again soon(:
love you guys(:

| 8:49 AM |

Friday, September 25, 2009

I dont know why, But I guess I've changed.

I overslept today plus I'm having a sore throat and stuff.
I woke up @ 2plus, super tired.

-Went to BM mac and study.
-Did nothing except math worksheet.
-Studied the wrong theme, river and coast. Now I'm going to change to Food(:
-Meet friend and chatted(:
-Saw lots of people and also chatted with Mat.
-My fringe is super short now:(
- Tired shall go sleep now, going out tomorrow.
-I love weekends(:

Nights.

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| 10:00 AM |

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Hello all, I'm not feeling alright now:(
Bye

| 6:01 AM |

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Those emotions are killing me.


I'm back, went home after LC period. Feeling super unwell.
Then x came and find me(:

So after which, I headed out. Lihao came and find me but couldnt cause I was not at home. thanks buddy(: , thanks for whatever you are doing, I appreicate it(:


Then went to eat dinner, ban mian(:
-Did math paper 1 and nothing else. OHMYGOD!
I gonna do my social studies homework now. I'll unlock my blog once I settle some stuff.


Bye people(:

| 8:07 AM |

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Hello people, It's freaking 1.18am now.
I'm still awake, And it was so coincidence that people are also locking up their blog.

And how would I even get to know it, it looks more like a stalker?
Anw, I had been thinking of stuff. Really have the urge, because I have no idea why.
I thought I should be angry or stuff, but I dint.
This doesnt look like nowell tan, I thought I wont ask x to concern but I did.
It's all freaking me out, what on earth's happening to me.

I thought I would post a large post about wtf people're commenting on.
But I dint, I wonder is it because of some reasons?
JW says I'm too kind to get bully by others, super easy.

But I'm not, doesnt mean I dont bother or comment, then people can take advantage of me.
I have my max, dont act a kind one and step a super _____ behind. I look down on this kind of people. What a shame.

And R, you're freaking werid you know. I dont even understand what the hell you really want, I have freaking no idea about everything. You're freaking me out.!

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| 10:13 AM |

I'm feeling terrible right now, super!
Many flash back appears, and how I wish I have the ability to do something.
Really, I hope everything would be like that past. Still a happy one.

Can someone grant me the ability to rewind the time and bring back happiness to everyone.
I dont know what I can do now, but I'm feeling terribly not right.
I want those smile and laughter that I first saw, but I guess I couldnt.

I really dont know what's wrong with me,
I'm feeling super useless right now that I cant even do a single shit to help, but messing up everything. Many ask me why I decided to lock again, to be true. I've no idea why so, because I think what I post now, I can trust those I invited. Not others I cant trust, but just dont know why lah.

I'm feeling so f up with myself, feeling useless, feeling helpless, feeling terrible.
Every feeling's killing me, i thought I can ignore and continue but I always think that it's my fault, if I dint appear nothing would happen:(

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| 6:19 AM |

Cause I'm also a human, have feelings & will feel hurt.

Hello people, I decided to lock my blog due to some particular reasons.
HAHA! anw, class for today's awesome(:
Except some disturbance by Stifu. LOL!

So, I'm thinking of getting a hair cut.
But still haven make up my mind, fickle-minded.
Anw, I just watched fated to be loved again, must be shuz influence me.
JCX's super handsome when he was proposing to CXY in the Church. HAHA!
Awesome, handsome what else. Hmmmm..(:

So well, I haven start revising. Shall go do my homework now if I can(:
Bye people.

| 5:25 AM |

I believe cause I trust

Monday, September 21, 2009

Cause I smile that why you feel happy.

Hello people, I'm freaking bored now.
Wanted to study but I couldnt, keep staring at the ceiling.
Many thoughts appeared and gone in a second. And reappears again.

Freaking hell, I want to study but just couldnt, I have no idea what I'm doing.
It sound so shitty! Done nothing for past few days only playing:(

Anyway, I found this news, quite an interesting one(:

Kissing quest makes Taiwan woman a web sensation
www.wretch.cc/blog/angelduck777/24982946 for more details. LOL!

She's like not afraid of anything @ all. I admire her, cause she dare to dream and dare to do it.
Ohmygod! Bravo, I guess not many can do it? Super less bah.

So, the sky's getting darker, raining soon.
Then I realised how times flies, O's is coming and the year's is ending soon.
Suddenly so emotional, HAHA! I've no idea why also.

Sometimes, I wonder am I still like the girl in the past?
Stubborn, emo-tional and what so ever my friends told me.
Or did I grew up, to someone mature and stuff.

I believe if someone lives my life, he/she will definitely grew up and change to someone else.
I dont know what the hell am I typing now, I just loathe now!
Whatever's happening, everything that's mine seems so insecure.

Everything that is happening, are killing my brain cells.
Every words that is spoken, are making me confused.
Every feeling that I'm feeling are so untrue.
Every goodbye I'm bidding, I feel like holding on.
Every love I want to hold on, is making me heart-broken.
And Everytime I feel like giving up and letting go but just couldnt.

Nb, can anyone explain to me why?
Why am I so werid, having this freaking feelings. I dislike myself:(
I feel like screaming, shouting and scolding whatever it's that I'm feeling.
But always cant, ARUGH!

All this's getting out of control, I dont have the ability or power to stop it.
It's freaking me out, help!

Ah tan, where're you, I'm feeling tired and many mixed feeling:( But I just cant describe it.

| 4:24 AM |

Sunday, September 20, 2009


Nice date, nice people, 20.09.2009

Hello people, I'm back.
Went to grandma's house for family gathering and then to Marina Square.
Intended to watch The Ugly Truth but end up, we miss the 4.20pm show.
Watched winnie and don playing the toy machine, Like $100 flies away.
So went to k-box, but dint sing cause way too expensive.

In the end, we watched The Ugly Truth @ 7.20pm I guess?
So, before that they played pool. I dint played, feeling very sucky again at the moment of time.
Chatted one phone and went to walk around.

Then, headed back. watch the movie, AWESOME!
Rating: 5 stars stars. Super funny even though, it's like very RA. But well, nice!
Then took bus home, Super tired and not feeling well.
Changed and went to eat my lunch plus dinner. Dint even have the wei kou to eat.
Left quite alot and dumb helped me ate all((:

Then home sweet home, and now blogging.
Shall go bathe, I'm uncomfortable with it.
Night people(:

| 8:59 AM |

Saturday, September 19, 2009

I always learn, but now I couldnt

Playing majong with winnie and others.
Mummy's playing for me, I'm feeling rather down now.

Why did it always happen, I'm feeling sucky now.
Can anyone explain to me why, is it my fate or what.
I dont know what to do now, I need someone there.
But I find no one, JW was sleeping. Lihao sleeping, Louis handphone spoil.
Who else at this late night is awake? No one I guess.

How how, I'm afraid. That all this wont last long.
Just can anyone explain it to me, why everything just happened in one second.
And when I wanted to find it, it just disappear.

I'm afraid, hold me there please. I think I might let go slip by slip.

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| 9:55 AM |

Friday, September 18, 2009

The path towards the destination is long and slow but with you, it makes everything perfect.

It's freaking 3am now, I'm still awake.
I'm feeling terrible now, despite resting for such a long time.

Today's lessons was fun, especially social studies.
Ms Tan was super cute, I guess only our class understood(:
And we learnt a new word, I-D-ten-T. Figure out yourself(:

So, headed to hawker with baby,shuz and lover. HAHA! Chatted and headed back for math group study. Wanted to go for night study, but the weather is freaking me out.
Making me feel like sleeping so went home(:

I promise I will go everyday starting from next week, nice girl(:
Anw, I did something productive by completing 8 math questions. So proud of myself okay.

Tomorrow the 7thmonth gate would be closing, which mean I can go home later than before.
So cool(: But I'm nice, I will study starting from next week.
A promise to myself(:

So bye people, I shall go and take my night nap. LOL!

| 11:51 AM |

My love will get you home.

I'm feeling very sick now, Very xin ku sia.
I slept from 5.30pm till 11plus. Super ultra tired.
So, dumbdumb message me asking me to rest(:
Wake up by lihao's call, idiot! Chatted awhile then ate(:
Bye people.

| 10:11 AM |

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Your appear.

I dont know why, at that very moment I saw you. My smile appears, those happiness.
I dont know what's wrong. I'm feeling very terrible now.
I dont know what else more I will be facing. But all this's getting me out of breathe.
Can anyone help me, please.

I thought I let go.
I thought I move on.
I thought I stepped forward.
I thought all this has disappear.
But then, it just came back in one second. Just like how I always wanted to let go and your appear let me, have another feeling.

| 8:17 AM |


Cause you turn everything back to where it suppose to be, 3.V.O.l

I'm back from night study class. Did half of math paper 1.
Did something productive today, happy!

So I was bullied by ahmad and gang, they took my slipper and hide it. Idiot!
Chatted with ahmad, toh and terry and did math(:
Then headed home @ 9pm with kenneth and terry.
Mr leong was chatting with us(:

So, school for today was alright, I love chemistry practical(:
I saw the prelim grade, L1R4 - 29. WTH! But my percentage was still not bad(:
Cause I dont have cca points, lets not talk about that cca points. I just find it ______.
should have join like clubs or Chinese dance or others? But at least, I still can get edusave scholarship(: top 10% I guess?

Hmm, so headed to hawker with felicia(:
Awesome, gossip awhile and walked to queenstown mrt there to take bus home.
Anw, I'll be going for tomorrow's night study.
Cause our favourite are there(:

Shall go play fb awhile then chat on phone and sleep.
See I'm such a good girl ah(:
NIGHTS PEOPLE.

| 7:39 AM |

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Those conflict, those "cold-war"

Those angry, disappointment, sad.

Those loving, kisses & happiness.

" I was thinking about those good times, then I remember those bad times we've. Those small quarrels, tears, smiles, happiness & many. Cause it was all this that make our relationship stronger & priceless."
-well

| 7:37 AM |


Those mask, those words, those people, those memories, those lies and everything.

I'm feeling super ultra unwell.
My head's freaking painful and heavy. Wanted to rest but couldnt.
Too freaking painful, dint went to school today.

But I'm a good girl, I studied at home.
I did finish one of the math paper and poa paper(:
Something productive and proud of myself(:

Anw, I'm very disppointed others. I just gotten a message telling me some stuff.
It's like wth, it's none of my problem but something which all are disappointed in you.
Anw, I just understand how foolish I'm to trust people around me that much.
I'm starting to feel lost, who's true and who isnt?

No one can answer my question, and stuff.
People're turning so scary, bitch, bastard, evil and stuff. Dint they think of happy times, good memories, even those bad ones. Cause is those good and bad stuff that make their bond stronger. Sigh, I'm confused.

And girl I wont, wont do it anymore. I'm starting to doubt on you and myself.
Cause this bad feeling came like so suddenly and it's towards someone, I wont say.
But doesnt mean I will see you doing what you want(:

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| 7:21 AM |

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


I learn, I try, I apply.

Hello people, I'm super tired today.
I slept @ 4plus am because many things just ran through my mind, I dont know why.
I just feel that every thing's not right but I dont know what happened.
I cant ease those thoughts and feelings. Feeling damn sucky.

So anw, gotten back our result. TOTALLY SUCKS!
A b3 for Chinese which I expect for a a2, even though, I was top for the Chinese.
I'm totally not happy at all:(
A D7 for combine humanities, Improvement, claps claps. But I can do better, like 6 more marks?
A C6 for English and happy for my paper 2, with like did much better than I thought it would.
So, a C6 for Science and math:( Super upset but well no point crying over spilt milk.
And I fell asleep @ math lesson when ms chan explained the question, Just so tired. YAWN!

So, overall I have to get back to school, cause I dint took poa. wth.
I not I guess, I wont be a super lousy point:(

So, People I shall go do my math questions now(:
Something productive(:

| 8:16 AM |

Monday, September 14, 2009

"Cause I believe you wont, cause I trust you wont, Cause I know you wont. And I believe what I saw and heard from you."
-unknown

| 5:42 AM |


I promise I wont let go.

I've no mood for everything.
I'm feeling super sick now, I just vomit out what I ate.
I wanted to do math worksheet but I only did 8questions and I already had headache.

Super ultra painful, very xin ku. But's okay, I ate medicine just now.
See, I'm a good girl, I dont want anyone to worry so I ate.
But ewww, medicine:'(

Anw, I totally have no energy for everything, I will post my result once I get all tommorrow.

Those words, those thoughts, everything just tell me, I'm important.
Edison told me a story, he got a friend love muffin alot but because his friend love it so he always give it to him. And eventually, he felt moody cause he just give something that he love to his friend.
Suddenly, something knock me up. He told me like how I love pokka green tea and I wont change to other drinks. We chatted alot then I realised lots of things.
Perhaps, he's right bah. I should have drink what I love and not what I dislike.
Cause I'll not feel happier(:

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| 4:00 AM |

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Cause true love never dies despite whatever happens.

It's going to 6am now, I just woke up like not long ago?
So tired, anw I'm going school soon.
Super sick now, I felt like vomitting.

And so many things is happening in one goal, my life is mess up.
Every mess up, I couldnt handle it. And eventually, I broke down and cried.

I collapsed, after standing still so long. So strong that I have to take out my mask.
And really cry out loud like for how long? I have no idea about it.
I'm tired, I'll cry, I'll hurt and what so ever cause every human beings having feelings.
I dont know what I'm typing now, I saw this mv, then suddenly think so. HHA!

Anw, wish me good luck for later prelim results.

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| 2:36 PM |

Those times, those people, those memories.

At this moment then I realised everything.
I thought what you always said is true, you wont throw me there.
But you just did it, I just felt so disappointed.

And the tears just rolled down, at that moment, I told myself all this while's just a lie.
I wont believe anymore words from you anymore. Now then I know I did the wrong step.
I shouldnt even move a step at all, let everything return to where it suppose to be bah.

Nights people.
Thanks Li hao, nixon, JW and others(:
With love, well.
You destroy the faith and trust that I build up in just a second.
Perhaps, that's the way I bid goodbye with you.

| 8:57 AM |

Saturday, September 12, 2009

"The happiest thing in life is to find someone you love and be with him. This process'll have sweet, bitter and sour at times. But it's all worth it when he told you :
Girl, I love you from the bottom of my heart & I meant it."

| 9:15 AM |


The wealthiest love is to have you right by my side, loving me.
I'm back from kenneth's birthday chalet.
I was bullied by them:(

Kenneth keep snatching from me, my lollipop.
So sad lah, and Winnie was standing there watching. Never even help me lah.
She say birthday boy big ma, wa lao!

So I was being called as xmm, and pineapple say I'm 16 years old. OHMYGOD!
I shouted, I'M 17. LOL! Super funny.
Ah siao and I forgotten who, wanted to gang up and bully me.
I was like so embarrassing lah, HAHA!
But awesome people, awesome friends(:

So took cab home, and msging xxx, jw and kenneth.
JW say I bu jiang yi qi, say want meet today but end up didnt.
Sorry lah, I was in a rush ma(: dui bu qi(:

Anw, yesterday meet up JW because of _______ aeroplane. -.-
So I headed to his house, wanted to meet zy and others but I cancelled it and head to east coast park alone.
JW's mother was funny, she thought I was JW's gf.
Despite, our clique go up for like dont know how many times.
So JW replied his mummy: Not my gf, But I wooing her. GF to be.
Wa lao! I hitted his leg and he laughed. Like the.......................
Even auntie also laughed, our joke lah(:

headed to east coast park and felt very sucky.
I went to bury everything but end up couldnt.
Listen to the sound of wave, the smell of sea and the beautiful sky.
Awesome, it makes me feels better.

And I remembered something there, I was smiling. I have no idea why.
Perhaps, he's too cute(:
Anw, headed home and then xxx came find me.
That's all, cause I dont know why. I felt like crying, laughing, so many emotions.

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| 8:11 AM |

Everytime I hold on is because of you<3

I just felt like blogging. HAHA!
I'll leave my house in 15minutes time, I guess.
And suddenly the smell of wind and everything let me slow down my speed.
Started to think, then I realised perhaps xxx still care and concern about stuff.

I dont know why, everything that is happening now make me lost confident.
Be it this or that, xxx came to meet me last night.
He apologized and told me something, at that moment I was touch, and thought maybe I'm the happiest girl.
I dont need a rich one, a handsome one, a cute one, a hot one, or what so ever.
I just need someone that understand me, be honest with me, never lie to me, love me for who I am, dote on me, concern about me, care for my family, how much I mean to him and really treat me & love me wholeheartedly. Cause I believe the wealthiest love is to have all this. All girls or women want this isnt it?

I dont want a poor love, I want something with memories and stuff.
I want to be the wealthiest girl with all this. But somehow I felt it's so hard.
I never believe in true & forever love after everything, cause human take it for granted of stuff.
I never believe in guy's word cause they will only make you fall.
And it was you who ask me to trust and believe there's. But I have no idea, can anyone tell me?

Everyone of them are asking me to trust cause there's always true love just whether I want to unlock my door. Is that true? It sounds so confusing and unrealistic.

Just so hard, to walk out of nightmare and walk out of everything.
But now I choose to believe and have that little faith in you, I'm slowly building up. So please dont destroy it.

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| 4:26 AM |

Hello people, interview's today. Super nervous plus I couldnt find my way there.
I was late and that crappy phone is totally not working at the wrong timing.

So had the interview, short videos and some photos taken.
I meet awesome people again(:
Took cab down to chinatown and headed home.

Going down to downtown for friend's birthday soon:)
Bye people.

| 3:35 AM |

Friday, September 11, 2009

The one should be someone else, isnt it.

I'm feeling sucky now because of something.
I'm feeling nervous cause I'm going for an interview.
I'm feeling excited cause of my friend's birthday(:

People wait for my good news alright(:
With love, tan(:

| 11:29 PM |

Perhaps, Sorry's the only word I can say or express from the bottom of my heart.

I dont know why, but pardon me people. I'm feeling super down especially when I saw some post. I was definitely more down, and then I started to think alot.

I didnt want anyone to be hurt, really I mean it.
I always thought if it's a war, I shall be the first one to be surrender and leave this war.
But everytime when I wanted to leave and return you your happiness, something hold me on.

I understand the pain of waiting cause I waited before.
The most hurtful thing's when you are so near to the one you loved yet he/she cant see you.

I just dont know why, I think I'm like a fucking bitch. Seriously, I have no idea why am I feeling this way. I didnt do anything wrong or whatever but seeing someone sad or hurt, I felt bad.

If I didnt appear, perhaps nothing will happen.
Perhaps, everything will be perfectly alright and happy ending? I'm sorry, but every time I let go xxx hold on. I dont want to see it this way, I thought I can handle it well.
I thought by saying a no and let go is so simple, but how come now everything 's in a mess?

I thought I should fight for my happiness but every little things hold onto me.
I cant move forward or backwards. Can it just be me myself that get hurt but not anyone.
I dont want to be saint or whatever but I just dont know how to hold on when thing's getting in a mess.

Just treat that Nowell's saying craps, I have no idea what I'm typing too.
This isnt like me, I hate it! :(
Just felt like crying out but yet I have no control my tears and act as if nothing has happened before. I'm afraid, I would collapse anytime.

I'm sorry but everytime i want to let go, he hold on. He ask me to care about his feelings, and dont push him away. I dont know what to do, I'm confused!

| 9:11 AM |


I'm going to let go of the happiness that I'm holding on.


you've no idea how I felt, that moment when I'm being leave alone.
You definitely have no idea, how much I felt like killing you.
And I seriously dont know how much I mean to you, in your heart. Is it something like what you say a important one and you need me there, or just empty words with no action.
Do I really mean something to you, I always ask my question every single minute I guess.

Cause I'm feeling very insecure it's like anytime, this feeling or love will be gone in just a second.
And perhaps I wittness everything today.
Every word that were said by you, those believe I had totally crush in one second.
Since, I'm so not important then why should I holding onto it?
Since, you didnt even care why ask?

Perhaps, I shouldnt have that little believe and faith that everything'll be fine.
Perhaps, I shouldnt try at all.
Perhaps, I really have no idea how much I mean to you.
Perhaps, at that moment of time my happiness's already far away from me.
Perhaps, I'm letting go now.

| 5:09 AM |

Thursday, September 10, 2009

I'm holding on to a notebook that records our memories, our love, our promise, our kisses, our quarels, present & everything.
I'm super ultra sad:(
Gotten back math result, 54.5/100. Another 0.5marks to c5.
Which idiot can do this? LOL! I guess only me.
Which idiot can lost 18.5marks for paper1 and2 just because of careless mistake. ME!

Ohmygod! I feel like killing myself, kill me please. 18.5marks not 5 0r 6 or what.
How can I manage to do that, I seriously have no idea.
I just now, those answer that i dint put $ and cm or what -1mark.
Ohmygod! Nevermind, it's okay. It's just prelim, everyone 's telling me this.
But I cant, I actually thought a b4 for math. then c6-.-
If I add up 54.5+10= 64.5, theeeeeeeeee.

Okay, dont talk about it anymore, Monday will have more heart attack.
So lunch with shuz and clique, awesome uncle that given us so much rice.
I manage to squeeze all in, dint want to waste any(:
So, I'm the winner lol! 1st Runnerup goes to shuz then 2nd runnerup: hweez
Then followed by yumi and felicia. HAHA! super lame.

So headed home, bathed and stuff. xxx called so chatted then hang up phone.
LOL! anw, tomorrow will be a better day:D I believe.

| 5:04 AM |

Wednesday, September 9, 2009


"Everything I'm holding now's everything that I cant let go. Cause I know it means something or important to me. I cant simply let go or can I simply hold onto it. I'm trying, trying real hard, cause I'm afraid happiness would slip off anytime."
-well

| 8:40 AM |

If it's that case, perhaps I should be the one to leave and let go.

Hello all, I was super, how should I put it. clumsy, unlucky? Whatever describe today.

Firstly, I totally have no idea for the time for English and I went @ 8.30am with no one there. 8.30AM you know! Freaking early, I should be lying at my comfortable bed:(

So I went around and then, I landed up at redhill. Duck noodles(:
But haven even eat until half felt like vomiting everything out, wa. $$ wasted!
Met up joey and take bus to school together(:

Anw, went for chemistry lesson. I get a b4 for chemistry but I'm totally unhappy with it except for practical. I could have gotten like full marks for paper 2 section B. My carelessness causes all this, regretted dint read the whole question and just rush through the paper, I believe I can do much better than this.

So, went tbp after classes ended. I dint went for English with shuz and others.
I was totally too freak out by the timing. headed to find shirley and stuff.
Manage to have a chat, cause I have no idea what am I thinking now.

And then a chat with xxxx, I was suppose to ___________________ by today.
But I just couldnt, I cant act as if others are nothing. But, I just dont know.
I'm confused with everything. The little confident that I have just disappear in a second.
I dont know how to handle it well, I dont know how to manage _______ and you.
I need time, perhaps everyone needs time.

Anw, getting back math result tomorrow, hopefully it'll be a grade that I hope for(:

| 7:53 AM |

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

" Throughout this process, I'm trying to understand everything. Perhaps letting go is a blessing, or perhaps holding on is a happiness. I have no idea what is the definition for others but for me, now holding on is a blessing and happiness cause at least I know I'm trying to hold on to the key to happiness."
-

| 5:16 AM |

It was something that human beings are learning.

I'll summarize today. Totally freak out!

- Firstly, I never see a jerk in my life.
- I never see my sister so upset, and all thanks to you.
- I'm super pissed off with you, really!

-Secondly, I'm not that great girl, seriously.
I'm totally not gentle and stuff but I dislike or hate people that question my family.
Thanks, that's my family, my sister who are you to comment on her?
Yes, I totally have no right in saying anything or comment. But do you have any rights to question about my family? Seriously, I dont find any needs.
Sorry to be straight forward but that's me. I hate it when people question or comment on my family.
You're not them or do you know what's happening to them? So who are you to comment on my family? Ridiculous.
I dont mind what you say about me but not my family. Thanks(:

-Thirdly, you this fucking jerk listen up.
I curse you! GOT KARMA!

-Fourthly, I'm sorry that's the only way I do.
I'm still a kid, I'm still learning.
If I'm at wrong, I can only say sorry. Nothing else(:

| 5:05 AM |

Monday, September 7, 2009

There's always something between us that we can never break through.

I shall make it short today.

Summary:
-I dint went for pinic cause my right eye went swollen. SUAY!
-I applied the cream and its turn out better.
- Sister was down accompany her.
- Went to k-box with her& ah tan @ night.
- We ate alot of food! SUSHI(:
- We sang, we laughed, we chatted.
- Headed home.
- I sprain my ankle, super painfully I felt like crying.
- Feeling terrible now, I've no idea why.
- Plus, I wasnt in any mood today. Yet, I felt something worst. I hate that feeling. A bad fore warning to me.
- I'm tired now. But I cant sleep.
- I dont knowwhat I'm typing now. Bye

-JUST IGNORE ME.

| 7:52 AM |

Saturday, September 5, 2009

The Love letter which's filled with many question without an answer from it.
Hello people, I'm back from east coast.
Played sand, seawater, kite and more. It's quite awesome.
Cause I managed to get to see my pretty small cousins(:

Anw, have little cuts on my leg, because of the rock but still okay.
So, I ate mac today. Mc Spicy @ the afternoon and somehow I'm hungry now.
I haven ate for dinner, I'm hungry:(

I'm craving for Ice-cream, chilli crabs, prawn noodles, wanton mee, fishball noodles, cookies.
MANY MANY, anyone's nice enough to deliver it to my house?
I'll say thanks(: HAHAH! and give you one cup of ice water. LOL!

So, I'm going to watch my drama now and wait for my ah tan to arrive(:
I have so many question with no answer to it.
Can anyone fill it up? I guess it's a NO.

Cause every question we ask or unsure of, it's always not answered.
I have no idea, perhaps this's life.
I have many question to ask but always I get no response. So, I choose to keep it and bury it.
Till now, it's the same. Thus, I choose not to ask but wonder.

Perhaps, we're still a kid.
Perhaps, there's always no answer to a question.
Perhaps, life's always like this.
Perhaps, we've to learn from our mistakes, surrounding and people.
Perhaps, we've to adapt to it.
Perhaps, that's fate/ destiny that we've to go through.

| 5:50 AM |

Friday, September 4, 2009

Hello people, watched The Proposal with dumb.
It was totally awesome! I love the ending.
And it was funny alright(:
I rate it 5/5 stars, I'm totally in love with it.
I found this picture from net, when Margaret proposal to Andrew.
It was like WOW! A girl did this.
So after which went to ah tan's house for steamboat.
Full! ate alot and played awhile majong.
Then headed home, called ______.
Cause the road super quiet(:
Then bathed and slept:D


| 6:24 AM |

Thursday, September 3, 2009

I do. I promise.

Today's science pratical was alright, I guess?
Except some part which I dont understand. And I cant retake poa.
To be honest, I'm super down when I couldnt take poa papers.

I guess 26 points will be gone. I still hoping and praying hard.
Anw, tommorrow will be the end of prelim! YAY!
And shuz is like telling me tommorrow's the end of examination. HAHA!

Anw, my right eye is still xxx painful.
It's like du yan long, in chinese? LOL!
So, I want to watch many many movies! I want movies marthron.
Proposal, G-force 3D, I love you - Beth Cooper, Year One, Bandslam, The traveller's Wife, The ugly truth and Dance Flick.
Yes, all this for now, it's like so cool lah. Imagine you watch it within aday:D
But it's impossible lah(:

So anw, this one week I'm gonna watch finish my drama series.
Slack all the way and play all the way:D


Anw, too many tags so I shall reply at here(:

Kenn=D, Thanks. you're which ken?
Gab, Haven okay yet, I also hope can faster recover:D anw, thanks
*METEOR*, Better than before but still painful(: No one, LOL! thanks. Btw, I still have no idea who are you(:
Walkerby, LOL! who're you? Can if you tell me you're?
Jerome, Of cause I'm fine! I'm strong emo1(:

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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

" You're real in front of me but why did I have that feeling like you're an illusion to me. It's so near yet so far. Far to reach but yet so near to be, always when I'm about to hold on to it. It disappear and when I let go of it, it appears in front of me like it's so real. "

| 7:53 AM |

Just a line apart.

Hello people, I didnt went to school today.
Because my right eye is infected and swollen, super painful.
Which mean I miss my poa paper.

Going to school tommorrow despite I'm given two days mc.
I cant afford to miss any. I'm praying hard that I can retake for poa.

So, went to meet shirley today after seeing doctor.
Met awhile and headed home.
I'm so suay can! anw, I found this photo(s).

Man Man Kan(:
My sister took it(:
Ohmygod!
Janelle Tan & Nowell Tan
Oh so, I'm super ultra hungry now.
I shall go and find food now(: Bye.
Anw, I love this((:
Tan's Sister(:

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