I believe cause I trust

Monday, September 21, 2009

Cause I smile that why you feel happy.

Hello people, I'm freaking bored now.
Wanted to study but I couldnt, keep staring at the ceiling.
Many thoughts appeared and gone in a second. And reappears again.

Freaking hell, I want to study but just couldnt, I have no idea what I'm doing.
It sound so shitty! Done nothing for past few days only playing:(

Anyway, I found this news, quite an interesting one(:

Kissing quest makes Taiwan woman a web sensation
www.wretch.cc/blog/angelduck777/24982946 for more details. LOL!

She's like not afraid of anything @ all. I admire her, cause she dare to dream and dare to do it.
Ohmygod! Bravo, I guess not many can do it? Super less bah.

So, the sky's getting darker, raining soon.
Then I realised how times flies, O's is coming and the year's is ending soon.
Suddenly so emotional, HAHA! I've no idea why also.

Sometimes, I wonder am I still like the girl in the past?
Stubborn, emo-tional and what so ever my friends told me.
Or did I grew up, to someone mature and stuff.

I believe if someone lives my life, he/she will definitely grew up and change to someone else.
I dont know what the hell am I typing now, I just loathe now!
Whatever's happening, everything that's mine seems so insecure.

Everything that is happening, are killing my brain cells.
Every words that is spoken, are making me confused.
Every feeling that I'm feeling are so untrue.
Every goodbye I'm bidding, I feel like holding on.
Every love I want to hold on, is making me heart-broken.
And Everytime I feel like giving up and letting go but just couldnt.

Nb, can anyone explain to me why?
Why am I so werid, having this freaking feelings. I dislike myself:(
I feel like screaming, shouting and scolding whatever it's that I'm feeling.
But always cant, ARUGH!

All this's getting out of control, I dont have the ability or power to stop it.
It's freaking me out, help!

Ah tan, where're you, I'm feeling tired and many mixed feeling:( But I just cant describe it.

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