Friday, September 11, 2009

Perhaps, Sorry's the only word I can say or express from the bottom of my heart.

I dont know why, but pardon me people. I'm feeling super down especially when I saw some post. I was definitely more down, and then I started to think alot.

I didnt want anyone to be hurt, really I mean it.
I always thought if it's a war, I shall be the first one to be surrender and leave this war.
But everytime when I wanted to leave and return you your happiness, something hold me on.

I understand the pain of waiting cause I waited before.
The most hurtful thing's when you are so near to the one you loved yet he/she cant see you.

I just dont know why, I think I'm like a fucking bitch. Seriously, I have no idea why am I feeling this way. I didnt do anything wrong or whatever but seeing someone sad or hurt, I felt bad.

If I didnt appear, perhaps nothing will happen.
Perhaps, everything will be perfectly alright and happy ending? I'm sorry, but every time I let go xxx hold on. I dont want to see it this way, I thought I can handle it well.
I thought by saying a no and let go is so simple, but how come now everything 's in a mess?

I thought I should fight for my happiness but every little things hold onto me.
I cant move forward or backwards. Can it just be me myself that get hurt but not anyone.
I dont want to be saint or whatever but I just dont know how to hold on when thing's getting in a mess.

Just treat that Nowell's saying craps, I have no idea what I'm typing too.
This isnt like me, I hate it! :(
Just felt like crying out but yet I have no control my tears and act as if nothing has happened before. I'm afraid, I would collapse anytime.

I'm sorry but everytime i want to let go, he hold on. He ask me to care about his feelings, and dont push him away. I dont know what to do, I'm confused!

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