Friday, November 20, 2009

Drink, drank, drunk.

I dint know I'm such a failure,
I dint know I'm nothing in your eyes,
I dint know all this while you were lying,
I dint know why am I tearing now,
I dint know your heart has already gone till the minute I realised when I wanted to hold on.

I'm super tired, dint have enough rest then I thought.
I've been injuring myself this few days, FREAK!
Even sprained my ankle, how suay can all this be.
Dint drink much, cause I was too tired.

I dont know why, I'm feeling very down now.
I feel like crying but yet I've to hide those emotions.
I'm breaking down very soon, I dont know how long more can I get hold of all this.
I dont know what can I really smile and say "yes, I'm happy. From the bottom of my heart"
Where's the happy-go-lucky girl in the past, I really miss my past alot.
When I really smile and acting out to anyone.
Cause now I can only smile, to hide and avoid everything.
It may not be the best solution but at least a better ones for now,
I know I disappoint you again, sorry.

I guess I just dont know what I want now for the moment of time.
I want to have fun, I want to be serious, I want to be happy, I want to smile,
I want to cry, I want laugh out loudly, I want to hold on, I want to let go, I want to love,
I want to be loved, I want everything BUT I ALSO WANT NOTHING.

How pathetic is my life right now, cause I totally have no idea, no future of what I want now.
I'm tired, I'm freaking pissed off with myself, FUCK UP MY LIFE!

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