Tuesday, December 29, 2009
The answer lies on you.
I thanks god for giving me a bunch of friends around me that love me so much.
I cherish every moment with you guys,
Ohman! I'm freaking emotional now.
2 more days and 2010's coming. Will it be a good year, I hope so.
Please, I seriously praying that it would be.
Anw, I'm going to watch hi sweetheart now. I miss my drama like super much can.
Tomorrow shift C, thanks!
And I dont get the reason for it when everything's too late.
It's not what I want it to be, it's what you want it to be like.
Cause once gone, it'll never be back again.
| 8:29 AM |
Monday, December 28, 2009
Cause dont understand what I'm feeling this minute of time, mixed feeling but yet it looks like I know what I'm feeling. Also, it's like I know nothing about this feeling cause I dont understand any.
Does anyone really understand what the hell I'm saying right now.
It's like some kind of alien language man.
I'm freaking confused alright, not only with myself but also you. DAMN!
Pardon me people, my head's burst with tons of stuff. Damn it.
Lots of things have been running through my mind, what've you been doing, Nowell tan!
Is that seriously you, ohman! What's wrong with you.
Many things are happening so fast that I couldnt take a good look at it.
It's all too sudden, perhaps I still need time to look through.
Or was it because I know but yet I dont want to spilt out.
Damn, I hate this kind of know and dont know feeling.
Perhaps, I understand what I'm feeling now.
Perhaps, I dont understand what I'm thinking now.
Perhaps, I just let things went too far.
Perhaps, You were now in my heart just that I dont know about it.
There're many perhaps, yet I know none!
I dont understand what I'm typing now.
I guess only god knows it, the one that created me.
Now, it maybe a good time to take a good look at everything, before I eventually screw things up again.
I just hope I wont ever screw up things again.
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| 8:17 AM |
Sunday, December 27, 2009
It just shock me the very moment when it all started, yet I dont know why, I'm smiling and in the same time feeling confusing.
Nope, it's starting at christmas? I dont know what craps I'm typing now.
Bestie's currently at my house! YESYES! they're playing majong.
And I'm going to join them soon. I'm freaking tired can.
But nevermind it's okay, bestie see! I so sosososo nice,
Tomorrow gonna be in full shift thanks god!
BYE, mummy's calling me. LOVE YOU PEOPLE.
| 9:26 AM |
Saturday, December 26, 2009
I dont know, this love game's getting me mad yet I'm still smiling. Nuts!It's going 3am soon, I just online. Feeling super sucky now.
I wonder why people tend to change so fast, I hate it.
That kind of feeling, it's like so pissed off yet, you're not pissed off.
It's confusing, bewildering.
I dont understand whatever I'm doing now.
Did I or did I not? I guess I did, just that I'm still acting like I dint know anything.
Did I avoid and run away all this while, this game's getting out of control.
It's either I stop it or I let it continue, but it seems that it's getting me tons of problems.
Freak! I dont understand what I'm typing now. I just hope everything stop for awhile.
Or dont ever stop, let it continue till I want it to change.
FUCK, I dont know what am I typing now. I swear!
I just freaking confused. you know.
But I know I'm smiling @ this moment of time.
And perhaps, I'm locking up my blog soon.
Bye!
Do you understand all this's driving me crazy cause I dont want you to get hurt.
| 10:39 AM |
Friday, December 25, 2009
It's kind of confusing when I understand what I want now but I'm smiling:DSlept at 1am yesterday, work was super slacking yesterday:D
Many things happened too, ladyboss came to check on staff.
And also check on nest 1 and stuff, it's rather stressful to face it when I came to think about it.
I guess I did screw up this nest, yesterday wasnt a good christmas for me.
Except for some part, from the bottom of my heart I'm smiling.
Raj was rather crazy and high yesterday, I seriously have no idea why's he behaving this way. HAHA!
So yes, after work went to eat my meal for the dinner+supper. HAHA!
Then home sweet home:D
Yes, bestie I miss you freaking lots okay! Where're you, I want to meet you man.
And also my honey and people! I'm very sorry cause I was busy with work, but I'll be more free as days goes by:D
Anyway, I received tons of poly stuff. And sister have been saying about it. HAHA!
So yeah, 2009's coming to an end, it's kind of sad.
Many things happened in this year, let me grow more or perhaps, learn more and fall more.
I dont know what's going to be happen in 2010, But I wish it'll be a good year for me:D
2009, I'll remember you. Cause it was also my last year in secondary school life.
Damn, I miss my hardcore group:(
Bye all:):):):):):):):)
| 7:43 PM |
Thursday, December 24, 2009
santa's coming to town:D HOHOHO!
Alright, work for today was still quite alright.
Except some little nagging and stuff, yes! I love Nest 1 tables ah!
Okay so, went to JP after work, slacked there and walked around.
I must say guys that drank are scary, I'll never ever change this mindset.
This's the fourth time or third time, creepy. HAH!
So took train home with Yuankai and others, they were super funny. And, i dont know how to say. Anw, full shift for tomorrow:) YAY! hill top:D
I dont know why am I so hyper now, and stupid me, I just realised my sister wasnt at home.
And I've been calling her name out for like half an hour. HAHA!
So yesyes, I forgotten to wish everyone, a happy merry x-mas:D
And yes I thanks god that I found you guys, always there for me!
Rocks to the max:D
| 9:19 AM |
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Cause I've such a wonderful friend like you, that I want to hold onto you forever.
Alright I'm galdful that I've so many wonderful friends around me:)
I love you guys, you're awesome! My hardcore group man!
And thanks raj and my dinos! You guys rocks!
AND thanks people!
Seriously, thanks for the concern about my grandpa, I almost wanted to cry when people ask me whether if he's getting better and stuff. Really, ohman!
So yes, Christmas's eve is tomorrow and I'm like working:)
And I haven brought any x-mas present yet, anw, I'm off on sat.
Outing with dinos:D
Okay I dont know what craps I'm talking about man.
Anw, tomorrow will be a better day for everyone. I seriously hope it would be better.
Somehow people around me are getting more upset and stuff, I dont wish to.
I want them to smile:D yes, especially someone that owe me 1hour of smile:)
NIGHTS!
| 8:42 AM |
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
It's all about me and you, I want you and no one else. Understand,
X-mas's party:)
LIGHTING:)
I'm super in love with this x-mas tree:DIt's super ultra chio, I mean pretty:)
Love it to max:)
MY RED HOT X-MAS TREE:):):):):):)::)It's going to be 3am soon and I'm still not asleep yet.
But I'm freaking tired,oh yes, as I was browsing through the net, I saw tons of photos about x-mas.
I can only say this year x-mas will be a waste for me, bestie sorry! I'll be working:(
But it's okay cause remember I have my 1.5times:D
So yes, I'm still thinking whether I should go for the class bbq, I'm working full shift.
Still deciding but I want to see my girls and others:( I miss them, my hardcore group:)
So yesyes, I still have not make up my mind, I'm waiting for raj's answer:)
And I get my paid today! AWESOME, but JWT was closed:(
I felt super ultra sad, cause no more fatin and ishak = no fun.
I swear I miss point your fingers and stuff, now it's the tribual dance that rule nest one? LOL!
Sigh, lets not talk about it anyway. I'm still planning how am I going to spend my salary.
I'm eyeing on the sony ericsson satio, the red was super HOT! It's really attracting me.
And yes, LH 's getting me a christmas present:) I want more please:)
HAHA! ops:x yeah, I have to get christmas present, I think my paid will be gone, thanks ah!
So I was nagged by B, just because I was having a terrible headache.
He kept saying : why dont want to sleep?
Me: Dont feel like
B: Go sleep, I say NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW!
ME: okay, I try.
B: You know I felt like giving you a punch, always so stubborn.
Me: Thanks ah, I know I'm one:)
B: damn it, I really want to knock your head.
Me: okay, now come to my house. But too bad you cant:)
B: NOWELL TAN, can you stop it, faster go sleep. If not I make sure the next time I see you, you gonna get it.
There's still alot, but I forgotten some parts:) I just know B's a naggy old man!:x
I'm gonna get killed but it's okay, I know he like being an old man. Especially nagging at me:)
So yes, I shall rest now. Going to find Raj they all tomorrow.
Nights! LOVES!
Ps , I know apologise cant help to cure your insecure but I'm gonna tell you, sorry. I'm leaving.
| 10:25 AM |
It took me days to know you, weeks to get along together, months to have fun and years to forget you.Alright this 2 days sucks to the max, i swear!
Yesterday was about work and stuff, that I dont wish to mention anything.
But I must say, dinos are the best pals I've:D
So yes, I was super ultra duper down for today.
I was hiding my emotions but eventually it dint success at all.
I was freaking pissed off with myself and myself.
I felt so hopeless and useless, like a nothing.
Sometimes, it isnt how people look at you, but how you look at yourself.
I swear I dint want to bring in my emotions, I always keep it well but I dont know why it always went in a mess when I entered dinos.
Some curse? AHA! okay not funny at all.
So yes, in the end thanks to my precious raj and others.
I started smiling, I seriously have no idea why am I like this.
My mind seems to be wondering about tons of stuff, but none I understood.
So yes, sorry all. I dint mean to, I was just trying to ignore myself.
DAMN, I dont understand any at all.
After that, I took the train then raj talked to me.
I dont know, or perhaps I dont wish to know any, I'm just hiding that the fact that I know and I understood? Did I or did I not.
You know my brain cells are dying one by one, I guess once school started I'll left nothing in my mind. thanks ah!
FREAK! I dont understand, I keep telling B how afraid I'm but I dint know the reason why.
I just think that I'm a freaking bitch, just a bitch.
| 8:58 AM |
Sunday, December 20, 2009
wondering around.
I dont know what's happening to me alright.
And you know what I just realised something, JAY CHOU IS GONE:(
He was here on 19dec, freak! I forgotten about it:(
So damn sad, and seriously i dont know what I'm thinking again.
I saw the msgs, those photos. Then I realised many things.
Yes, memories just flashed back in one second.
How scary can all this be, dint I remind myself everything's gonna be fine.
But why did I even get down so easily,
I'm seriously tired of what my mind's thinking, I cant seem to get hold of it well.
It's always wondering around and now, I've a big question mark on my head.
Shit, I dont understand why. And I dont even know why.
Did I forgotten those little pain and hurtful ones that have built up on me,
If not why is that so, fuck! I dont understand myself.
But I know, I wont fall. I'm remain as it's even if I cant.
Cause that is the best way to get over things:)
| 9:22 AM |
Cause even as times passby, we'll never forget one another. But remember each other.Ohman! I finally have an off day today:)
Went to eat lunch with uncle and sister & her bf, awesome food!
I'm like in great hunger man, Iloveit!
So yesyes, I'm getting fatter ah. Shit keep eating and eating:(
Anw, went to find baby N after that @ JPB, haha!
So chatted awhile then went off tgt to somerset:)
Met clique @ orchard central, went to level 8 there to have our dinner.
I'm freaking full alright, and we were like mad girls, haha!
Tons of fun after so long, Ilovethem!
So yesyes, after which, we were like having a "cheena" tour. HAHA!
Like we never been to town like this, keep taking photos and playing around.
Oh and model wanna be:)
HAHA! hweez and hermes was funny!
Then after which home sweet home, and look! whose birthday's coming.
Ahem, I forgotten haha! ops:x
So yes, would be going for class bbq @ lewis's house on 24dec, after my shift:)
Then we will count down together I guess?
Ohman, I'm excited with many things:)
So yesyesyes, girlfriends we'll meet up soon alright.
Damn soon, Imiss you guys like hell lah. I miss secondary school life now.
I regretted:( I always wanted to leave Queensway but now, Imiss Queensway like mad cann.
I miss all my teachers, principal, staff @ there, security guards, nagging by teachers and friends, fun with teachers and friends, chalet, party, outing. What else, and those stressful and irritating homework:D
Ohman, I'm sososo sad:(
I love all! Yes I love all. AS WELL AS FOR HOLLYWOOD DINOS!
I LOVE THEM MADLY, ESPECIALLY MY JWT PEOPLE:)
You guys're awesome that I dont want to lost any:)
| 7:35 AM |
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Alright today's a bad day for me,So much things is happening alright! Later it's like cutting down manpower so I've to be bad guy.
I hate it, so intially I told collin I dont want t be, ahah!
Well, not only that today's just freaking pissing me off and making me super stressful alright.
But well it's okay, my hardwork will pay off soon, which is tomorrow off day:)
So looking forward to meet my girlfriends tomorrow! IMISSALLOFTHEM!
Anw, I dont know what's on my mind now.
It's like I always screw up things, I hate it when my mind wonder around.
I hate the feeling that I'm having, the thoughts I'm having, the words I've searching, the sentence that I'm hoping. OHMAN! What's wrong with me.
I hate it you know, why always become like this.
I dont know, I feel like killing myself:(
| 8:33 AM |
Thursday, December 17, 2009
FAILURE.Sorry people, No happy post today.
Work was pretty fun like seriously, I've been slacking.
I hope tomorrow it'll be raining.
And slacked @ JP's mac. HAHA!
Headed home and things went crazy for me seriously, cause grandpa was not around.
He was admitted to hospital, and mummy was super upset keep crying and stuff.
I felt super sad, cause firstly, I dint did what a grandchildren should do.
Secondly, I cant even cheer my own mummy up, I only can see her blaming herself.
I felt super useless and hopeless.
Cause I cant even do something to let people smile, WTF're you nowell tan doing.
Freaking hell, you're just a failure.
I just dont know what I'm feeling now, thinking now and stuff.
I just hoped everything will be fine for everyone.
Is that so hard, am I asking for more.
Why always it's like this, those things keep happening and happening.
I dont know when I'm fall apart, I dont understand why either.
I really dont understand myself anymore, and I guess no one will.
Cause I'm freaking confused with everything, why's this so.
FUCK!
| 8:06 AM |
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Cause I can only say byebye.I'm super ultra tired alright.
Work = fun, home then lappy and sleep.
Ohman, my life's getting more bored.
But it's okay, I love my job but not those irritating things I've got.
So yeah, I LOVE MY PEOPLE! AWESOME:)
Anw, my off tomorrow's gone, sunday I'm off:)
So yes bye people!
Oh my job have a jay zhou, ohman!
Saying that he's coming to SG, I WANT TO SEE LAH. DAMN IT
| 7:46 AM |
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Sometimes, I do hope once I fall, I'll never get up. At least I feel the pain and it'll remain there.I dont know why either my mood was super ultra down.
I'm feeling terrible, I hate that feeling.
Work was alright, except I injured my leg. It's freaking pain.
Seriously, I've no idea how long I'm gonna tolerate it.
Tomorrow working @ 2pm but collin asked me to work @ 11am tomorrow.
Goodluck man:( Thurs, my off day's gone. Left sunday:)
So yes, I'm super pissed off with myself which I have no idea why.
I just hope if all this is what I'm feeling right now, can you take it away.
Cause I dont want it, not now and not in the future or so.
So yes, wtf. I dont even know what I'm typing right now.
Just ignore me, if can I just hope everyone ignore, dont care about me.
I'm just a junk.
Fcuk, I dont know why I'm so down.
| 7:12 AM |
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Cause the moment just disappear in a few seconds.I lost my freaking wallet in the bus.
SMART ME:(
I was so dumb, I should have remembered to check but I dint:(
So I'm praying hard now that it'll appear tomorrow morning:)
I want my IC:(:(:(:(
Anw, thanks ray, bala they ran out to chase after me and helped me:)
Seriously I'm gald you have you guys around, and also kelvin and shawn:)
Really it's awesome, and thanks for the tissue:)
And people around who comfort me or console me.
LOVE YOU GUYS:DDDD
So yes full shift today and I'm dying already.
I'm already sick and I'll become more sick I guess.
Hmm, tomorrow full shift again. JY man:)
| 8:43 AM |
Thursday, December 10, 2009
my tears rolled down,I super pissed with myself,
I just feel like crying out loudly, you know.
I'm super moodless.
Training today was quite fun:D
But I keep kana bitten by mosqitoes:(
Then after which got little guest come in, so yes, performed.
Yup, Iwas just upset. I dont want to type anymore.
| 7:32 AM |
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO HERMES & FELICIA.
May all your wishes come true:D love you guys.
And thanks for being there for me all this while.
| 5:44 AM |
I dont know, every minute just let me recall everything that I dont want to recall.
Have JWT training, dancing like kids.
No I should say we must be mentally 3-4 yrs old.
So it was fun alright:D
Today was alright too, I think we have tons of fun.
Especially for the promoting, jack keep playing and disturbing us.
Oh well, last day of promoting kind of sad ah,
Cause awesome people left one by one, :(
But well, there'll always be a chance for us to meet each other.
Anw, tomorrow will be at 5pm.
But I'M DOWN WITH FLU, FREAK:(
Gonna celebrate hermes and fel's bday. But grandma is going oversea:(
Gonna send her off then meet them:D
Okay bye people! I go watch my hi sweetheart:D
AND I M TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH MY JOB:D
| 5:24 AM |
Monday, December 7, 2009
ILOVEDINOS!
Okay, I've funfunfun today @ NHC with TJ and Raj!
We were promoting and having fun, laughing like mad.
So after which went to bugis to get bag!
YAY! I've new bag so cool!
So then went to find hermes, then after which went to aunt's area.
Helped out, and there's one bloody guy.
Lying on the floor scaring people. The cups of tea I'm holding spilt out-.-
Yes thanks to him ah, then he keep looking @ me.
Scary alright, I keep telling aunt.
Anw, working @ 10am tomorrow @ NHC.
But gonna reach there early, dead! I'm super tired now.
I slept @ 6am yesterday, tomorrow still have to help out aunt.
Bye people! LOVES!
| 7:39 AM |
Sunday, December 6, 2009
The love of magic's to smile to everyone, to bring happiness.Ohmydamngod! I just post a whole page of post end up all gone.
Sorry for not updating for like so long, cause I dint have the lappy with me.
So yes, sister's back! with my present:D
Yes, I've fun all this few days, funfunfun!:D
With all those dinos staff, I've fun with them.
They're all so nice, even though, this job's super tiring but I've fun with them.
Saturday went out with Baby N and Lewis.
Wanted to watch movie but movie no more le, so end up pool.
Yeah, I super lousy! Cause I very lousy! HAHA!
photos uploaded by the two of them.
Yup, Anw, Chatted with smallboy! OPS:X
I think I gonna get killed! So after that chatted with BFF!
Yes, I love them!
Okay, I dont know what to type anymore.
Working @ heart disease centre around 10 plus.
Ohmygod! bye people!
LOVES! NIGHTS
| 11:13 AM |
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
PISSED!
