Thursday, December 17, 2009

FAILURE.

Sorry people, No happy post today.
Work was pretty fun like seriously, I've been slacking.
I hope tomorrow it'll be raining.

And slacked @ JP's mac. HAHA!
Headed home and things went crazy for me seriously, cause grandpa was not around.
He was admitted to hospital, and mummy was super upset keep crying and stuff.
I felt super sad, cause firstly, I dint did what a grandchildren should do.
Secondly, I cant even cheer my own mummy up, I only can see her blaming herself.

I felt super useless and hopeless.
Cause I cant even do something to let people smile, WTF're you nowell tan doing.
Freaking hell, you're just a failure.

I just dont know what I'm feeling now, thinking now and stuff.
I just hoped everything will be fine for everyone.
Is that so hard, am I asking for more.
Why always it's like this, those things keep happening and happening.
I dont know when I'm fall apart, I dont understand why either.

I really dont understand myself anymore, and I guess no one will.
Cause I'm freaking confused with everything, why's this so.
FUCK!

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