Thursday, January 7, 2010

Happiness's so near yet so far.

I guess I've disappointed many people around me,
Perhaps I'm making everyone distant from me.

Seriously I've no idea what I've been thinking and doing lately.
Sorry people, I swear this isnt what I want. I dont want any heartbroken & disappointment in you guys:(

Chris just scolded me, I swear this's the first time he talks to me this way.
And I know all this's for my own good, perhaps.
It just give me a extreme knock into my head, I have not been behaving like myself for I've no idea.
Those happier I just was destroyed in just 1 second, yet happiness have to be constantly built up.
It takes months or even years to slowly entrust yourself and feel the happiness.

And precious , sorry! I'm freaking sorry I swear I dint mean to.
I'm sorry to disappoint you:( You know me right, I'm seriously out of mind today.
I know I know, just give me alittle time, perhaps, I would be fine:)
AND I know, you'll always be by my side like how I did:)

I know I've to make a decision, yet I just couldnt.
Lots of things are making me more and more confused.
I know myself the best, I wants to hold on but I couldnt.
So the only way left is to push this happiness away,

It's so near yet so far, I just dont know what I want after walking and walking.
It still cant get through, FUCK!

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